I feel like a flat white coffee minus the caffeine!
I am having a few of those days at the moment, not sure why. The weather doesn't help one jot. Its feels like a storm front building up but without the release of a thunderstorm.
This week should have been a quiet one, but deliveries, dental and hospital appointments got slotted in, making it a jumble of rushing here, there and everywhere. Poor DB has at times borne the brunt of it which isn't fair on him. So I try to hold onto it so as not to upset him further, poor chap!
In the end it becomes a vicious circle. Immediate family are caught up in grief and general disturbance, so can offer no help yet are in need of it themselves. I need to know they are okay, need to give them a hug and a kiss but can't physically get to them at the moment. It makes me feel so damn useless.
Sometimes, one gets spread a little thin and this is one of those times. We will all get through it as usual, just isn't pleasant whilst its happening:(
I hope to soon kick this black dog into touch 'cos he's being a right pain at the moment.